My Life Achievements

Before I begin I would like to give a huge thanks to my followers. None of my blogs would be here if it weren't for you. Because you are so few, I thought I might do you the honor of listing you guys

• Madison Blom (Madison Blom)
• Rachel Lendich (Craving Cyanide)
• Alana Bosgra (Alanarama)
• Stacey Ellis (snugglesnoop)
• Bree Stewart (breeze1994)
• and Rachel Wilson (rachelerinwilson)

Without you guys this blog would mean nothing.

Now:

I was sitting at home one time, bored out of my skull, ribs and all internal areas that exist, and my mum stumbled in on me playing some Counterstrike. Classic. And she made a pretty harsh comment, saying, "What have you achieved in life by doing what you do now?"

Wow.

Never in my life has so much nothing filled my head.

I tried to come back with a response, anything, but I couldn't think of anything. I was stunned. I had no idea what I spent my whole life doing, if it was worth it, or what I have achieved from it. Mum continued to do what mum's do, while I just sat and stared out my window. Limited view, but enough for my mind to think about my life in entirity.

And then I asked the exact same question: "What have I come out with?"

Wealth: No
Heaps of Friends: Huge No
Social Security: No
Popularity: No

When I asked about my happiness I realized something. This whole time, I was using video games and computers as my painkiller. Ever since I lost my best friends in primary school, I resorted to video games in order to fill the void that was missing friends.

I stared at my screen as it called me to play some Combat Arms. I closed the lid and sat on the bed. Millions of thoughts were rushing so fast I had barely enough time to pick them out.

It was painful. I had wasted my whole life on computers and nothing was to be shown from it. I barely had friends, none of whom I 'hung out' with, I was earning an extremely low-wage, which went straight back to video games, and I had nothing but video games to do on weekends.

Video Games had become a huge part of my life. They still are, but because of that choice in my life, I have missed out on a lot of great opportunities that were offered to me when I came to my highschool.

So many people were accepting and willing to befriend me at Grade 8. I ignored them and continued my life of video games. Eventually, most of my grade started realizing that I wouldn't change and left me alone. After learning this, I tried to change and became more accepting of other interests. But it was far too late for me.

But, that said...I can't say that my life has shown nothing. I still loved to listen to people and help them out with their problems. I was pretty much the amateur psychologist. I'm doing the 40-hour famine to help those who need it the most.

I have achieved some things in life after all.

I hope to achieve more though. I think it's too late for me to make a range of friends now. I've accepted that and I'm trying to make do with what I have, which is not bad for me. I have a huge collection of video games, I know a few people who share remotely similar interests.

I'm doing okay. I'm hoping, though, that come next year. I'll be sweet to find someone for the formal *wink* (that was a request btw, I am THAT low)

I better go, that's too much emo stuff for ONE night.

I'm GreenDog, and the is...The Life Of Greeny

Yours Sincerely, Faithfully, Truthfully, etc, etc...

GreenDawg!